The Boy Rant.

This is primarily therapy for me, the two of you that actually follow my blog don't have to read it. :) Hopefully by the end of this blog, I will feel relieved and I won't think about this topic as much as I have been. *Cross your fingers*

I am SO tired of boys! And I am so tired of being used. I can recognize it, no matter what the said "motives" are of the other party. I know when I'm being used, and I don't like one second of it. Being hurt is inevitable, but I'm tired of it being constant. SO. I'm making a wish list for God. I want to list every quality of a man that I want, and hopefully He will take that and show me the perfect man for me.

-I want a man that will keep me in check. I want him to tell me to calm down when I'm being senseless, I want him to slap me back to reality when I start drifting away from it. I want to constantly build each other up with ourselves and our spiritual walk. I don't want a distraction, I want an accountability partner.

- I want him to be able to have the strength to talk about how smokin' Jessica Biel is, but at the end of the day, I know that he wants me and absolutely no one else. If it were me and him in a room full of gorgeous girls, I want him to be able to point at me and say "Now THAT'S my woman."

-I want him to pull all kinds of crazy pranks on me. I want him to make fun of me. I want to go put put golfing when we're 45 on a date and still act like we are teens. I want a friendship on fire.

- I want a guy that recognizes my needs. I want a guy to know to hug me and play with my hair when I'm crying, and give me big huge hugs when I'm stressed out.

- I don't want a guy that buys me the world. I want a guy that will give me what I need. If I'm super stressed about something going on that day, I want him to leave me a little sticky note saying "Make this day your b****." or something along those lines.

-I want a guy that will use she-said jokes. But not overuse them.

-I want a guy that will share my joy and pain. When I'm pissed that someone hated on Beyonce, I want him to say "Where's a bucket of rocks... people that don't know that Beyonce is the most talented woman on earth should be stoned." Well...not really. But you get the idea.

-Finally, I want a man that makes me a priority, not an option.


Looking over all these points, I realize that I said "I want" a lot. And I also realized that was wrong of me. God will give me what I need, not necessarily what I want. I need prayers...prayers that will help me determine the difference between what I want and need. I just need to talk to God more...


Pray for me,

Sarah